Forever starts today...

I was gonna go to sleep, because I lost all need for sentimentalism and much ado about calendar dates. And as I sifted through my in-tray to make sure nothing was pending, I decided to write this poem. And I had to do it today. Because I haven't blogged in almost a year. In that time, I've had plenty of starts, plenty of drafts and unfinished thoughts, but never a complete post. So when I wanted to write right now, I wrote right then, and for the first time since the last time, I wrote in less than 20 minutes. maybe I was just lucky, maybe I was truly inspired, but hey, for whatever reason, I wrote a poem! A poem! A poem!

So I'll share my cliches and platitudes, because I have always believed that writing is evidence. And I must have this up before midnight, because I needed to finish it today. And no, it's got nothing to do with the calendar date. to me, it's just, well, TODAY.... :) :)

I PICK TODAY

Today is a new day,

Well, not so new, it’s almost completely done

But it just seems like today is as good as I’m ever gonna get

So I pick today

Yesterday was laden with self-doubt and questions

Standing before my those of my age set

And seeming to lag way behind

So I worried, and hid, and acted like it was all fine

When every night I cried out for a miracle

I hoped that He would see beyond this doubt and selfish ambition

And give me a story of my own to write

Sometimes when tears failed, I took matters into my own hands

But it never quite worked out how I hoped

Because, in the grander scheme of things

Nobody paints a Picasso better than Picasso

But even Picasso began somewhere

So I pick today

I pick my own beginning,

And I pick the end written out for my story

I pick trust and faith in Him who’s Word is true

Has He not said, and will He not do it?

Is there anything too hard for Him?

I pick my pages, and His truth

And I write out a new beginning for me
You say

Tomorrow is coming soon enough

So maybe I ought to wait for tomorrow

But look how much has been lost,

Waiting for the soon enough that never is

I don’t want any part in that

So I pick today

I pick my own journey of faith

I pick the people I shall chance to meet upon the way

I pick intercession for every one of them

I pick out-pouring of my spirit for the needs of my friends

I’ll start today, even though tomorrow’s a breath away

Because in that breath I can

Make someone smile, ease their burden

I can pray, even just two whispered pleas

So that when tomorrow is here,

I’ll have started yesterday

And all I’ll need to do is keep moving ahead
Occupy till He returns

 Just like I did yesterday

Because I picked today

Tomorrow is not mine to have,

So I pick today,

I pick today

I PICK NOW!!!

my dream and happily ever after

Everybody looks for so long for that moment of clarity, for that one moment you can say when you sat somewhere, or you stood somewhere, or someone said something to you, and voila! You began to live life just like that, Snap! Many are not so lucky in this regard. A few have that wonderful experience at some point in their lives, most do not. Most of us just start and restart and restart until you are either too tired, too broken or you make it. Then there is the euphoria that knocks you down when you discover something new, and just like that, you once again throw yourself into it hook, line and sinker.

That's what I'm doing, discovering something new, that maybe my life doesn't have to be the way I planned, that maybe I can have it all , maybe I can leave behind a worthy legacy, maybe I can raise myself and in turn help humanity, because the empathetic pat on the shoulder can only go so far. So I choose to believe it for what it can be, with more than a little faith, more than a little hope. My mother says not to put all these my eggs in one basket, but how many basket do I have? How many lives? Nonetheless, I know that I am not entrusting my dreams to these human beings, I am entrusting my dreams in my God, the One who CANNOT lie, and He says,

Write the vision down, and make it plain on tablets, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it, because it will surely come, it will not tarry.

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart: and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.
A man's heart deviseth his way; but Jehovah directs his steps

Delight thyself also in Jehovah; and He will give thee the desires of thy heart. Commit thy way unto Jehovah; trust also in Him and he will bring it to pass. Rest in Jehovah, and wait patiently for Him...

What is impossible with man is possible with God... 

Not that making it King James'y makes it truer ;) :) but yeah, those are His words, Him, who declared the end from the beginning, Him who saw my end before I was conceived. 

 

I made my dream board slash vision board early yesterday morning as part of this programme I'm being taken through. It was exciting, like going back to being six years old and making cuttings to stick in my little scrap books,  of who i wanna be when i grow up... but also, you're like whoa! you know, you're not six anymore, you're all grown up, you know what the reality is like... isn't that too much? But He owns the cattle on a thousand hills and all silver and gold belong to Him, that is my Father. What shall i fear?

 

 

A vision board

 Me, I'll share mine when i think I'm officially done with it, maybe in a few weeks... it's crazy, but it's mine, like a child... you can't throw them away...

Faithful is HE who promised, who will also bring it to pass...