I would be

When I was in third form, I heard that Simple Plan song 'Welcome to my Life'. Sixteen and hating everyone in my life, blaming dad for everything that ever went wrong, and everything that ever would short of the war in Iraq (probably 'cause it hadn't began). My brother was already a rock nutcase, I'd go home on holiday and the house was blaring with Creed, Coldplay or someone. But Welcome to my Life is the only tune I ever remember from those days. That was the first time i ever paid any attention to rock. And I thought they were brilliant, those young men. Listening to Perfect, and I was sure they were the best thing that ever happened to me. During a  function us music students were organising I heard One Last Breath by Creed, some tune I had heard courtesy of Colin the rock nutcase :), and just like that, I loved rock. I haven't listened to much else since.


Through the few years my taste has improved MUCH, I prob would not listen to Simple Plan now, but somehow today I remember that song after that long. I feel a little like that nice lady in Does Anybody Hear Her. Running. Still running. i cannot seem to stop, coz once you get the hang of it, it's much simpler to keep on course. I'm listening to Frail by Jars of Clay

Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like You said I would
A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things


If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...
I would be...
I would be... Frail.


Blessed are the shallow
Depth they'll never find
Seemed to be some comfort
In rooms I try to hide
Exposed beyond the shadows
You take the cup from me
Your dirt removes my blindness
Your pain becomes my peace
it's been a long and less than easy semester, I can't say it ever got worse than this. But that's life, it's hard. But hard as opposed to what? It's just life.
It's only life. I will live. Nay, I have lived.

Don't look away, don't run away, Hey baby it's only life. Don't lose you faith, don't run away, Hey baby, it's only life!

                                   Kate Voegele